The Beautiful Body

Mad Man With A Blue Box

I'm having some serious Doctor Who withdrawal. I realize the next series is just around the corner in April, but damn. I've never been a patient person. Unlike the good Doctor, I just don't have the time...

Onward, Good Soldiers

I don't know why, but this picture fascinates me. No, not in a sexy way, but I suppose in some awe inspiring way. I never stopped to think exactly how our troops where transplanted on missions.  

Well, yeah I figured they had to fly, but not packed up like a can of sardines. Wow. Just, wow.

I give much respect to our servicepersons. I takes a lot to fight and die for freedom. I just dunno have the words to convey the feeling at the moment.

Perfect Imperfection

I'm surprised there hasn't been more hype surrounding Kim Zolciak's departure from the Real Housewives of Atlanta. She did call them the n-word in one of her final segments. Thought more folks would be after her wig for that racial epithet. Bravo censored the remark, but you could still her the "nigg..." before the bleep. Yeah. Baby it was time for you to go!

Maybe Kim's remarks were just a non fucking-factor! For that matter, is the show anymore? Atlanta Housewives seems to sinking to new depths. The two new women replacing Sheree, Porsha and Kenya(?).... I dunno. One is mad-stupid, the other is mad-crazy. To quote Kandi, they're boughetto Um... yeah.

The Atlanta franchise might be on the fast track to cancellation. Nene is making a name for herself! With her stints on the New Normal ( I adore that show) and Glee, how much longer is she going to stay??? Let's face it, Nene is the Real Housewives Of Atlanta! I can't see the show continuing much longer. I don't. I really, really don't....

Pearl Harbor Day

With the World War II Vets getting on in age now, with our modern day battles and concerns, I often wonder if the younger Americans stop and think about Pearl Harbor's events? I mean when you think about all of today's conflicts....We had Iraq, Still have to deal with our involvement in Afghanistan and Libya, and looks like Syria is on the list of  US involvement soon enough al Assad continues to threaten his people with chemical warfare.... Pearl Harbor seems like a small blip on the historical radar.  Let's never forget those heroes who paid the ultimate sacrifice that day so Americans (and eventually Europe) could stand tall and free.

Remembering those who fell 71 years ago today.....

True Blood: Everybody Wants To Rule The World

I was disappointed True Blood has jumped on the bandwagon demonizing President Obama. The use of an Obama mask representing a hate group is soooo tacky and right wing in my opinion. Damn. Et tu True Blood? Really?

I've been impressed with the season thus far and saddened we only have three more episodes left to the season. I'm glad they didn't let the storyline with Terry Bellefleur and his former Sargent drag on. The Ikrit demon thingy creeped me out. No more nightmares. Lafayette was a hoot as always..."Why y'all dead people gotta be so cryptic? It's not cute!" 

We were even given a glimpse of peen tonight...first I think for the show, which I find unusual for an Alan Ball project. Usually there's dick penis all over the place. I thought for sure Chris Meloni was a go to drop trou. He did it for Oz... but nope. Bupkis. Oh well I don't watch True Blood for genitalia.

My observation is this season definitely redeemed itself over last. While the Fae/Faeries have worked their way back into the plot, this season they make sense. No witches. No werepanthers (stupid idea). No drawn out crap rounding out to wasted storyline. I'm even enjoying Tara new fangship in vampirehood. The dynamic between her and Pam (Blonde Barbie Bitch, love her) is comical, endearing, and a great conception.

Russell and Steve Newlin? Interesting pairing up.

Oh did you check out young Alcide tonight? He was a cutie. So is grown up Alcide (Joe Manganiello). OK, maybe I do watch for the eye-candy, hm.... I'm slutty like that!

Seriously though, with a few tweaks, Season 5 could be as promising as the first few. Just no one Elitists in Obama masks please!

Letting Go Of The Old Year

2011 hasn't been a bad year. It's been overall a learning year and I'm proud to say I'm coming away from the last 3-6-5 with more insight and knowledge. There were times I felt like giving up, but perhaps my greatest testimony will be the resiliency gained. Sure I'm closing the old, starting the new, single, but it could be worse. LOL.

I'm looking forward to the challenges 2012 will bring and I hope to tackle many of my so-called failures from this year... lack of trust, vocational aspirations, weight loss, etc... and make those successes! Yep. 2012 is the year I take back.

Come what may finale

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return..."

Heavy Is The Head...

That Wears The Crown.

Hmph. One ain't never told a lie with that expression!

This morning and day appears to be promising. I have a busy agenda at work today, one of which is hiring two new employees to help with astronomical building work load. I already had my interviews with the candidates and have to present my facts to my supervisor this afternoon, then let personnel know. I'm responsible for this decision. Baby, I'm sweatin' bullets over it too!

It hasn't been an easy choice. Each of the candidates interviewed well, but I can only choose two. Hardest still, one interviewee is a FRIEND. I can't play favorites. I really have to separate friendship from professionalism, but dude does have a big chance of grabbing the prize. I just have to let the overall facts convince me if he's best suited for the position. Let things speak for themselves.

Lord. This is my first real test as a supervisor. What if I choose unwisely? And in this economy, good jobs are hard to come by. This is someone's life at stake, possibly! Help me Lord! LOL

Ultimately, I'm grateful for this experience. It's not an obstacle I can't overcome. Usually I'm a good judge of character. As I'm getting ready this morning, I think I already know who I'm selecting, so I'm not gonna invest anymore worry than I have to.

Wish me luck!

In Hope & Faith,
-Ian

WCP: (Interlude) Good & Bad Hair!

There's a side story to this, from the trip, I may or may not write about...

WCP: Flying The Friendly Skies

Part One to The West Perspective Series:

Papa Red Bear’s gotta laugh at himself with this one! Sure do. LOL. Up until recently a few years ago, yours truly hadn’t foot on an airplane prior to 9/11/11. I never enjoyed flying and avoided it at all cost. Call me crazy, but I think it’s a control thang. Between getting caught up in the aerodynamics of what’s really holding that vessel aloft, incessant ear popping, uncomfortable seats, and obnoxious flight attendants, it was just too much.

Pilots are another entity all together. Please, let that person not be drunk, too tired, or just plain in a pissy mood, so s/he gets me safely to my destination. I rest my faith in your (hopefully!) capable hands. Combine all these factors and you have a passenger that sits quietly in his seat before and during flight. I only get up when time to disembark. Yeah, I know, “¡Vaya con Dios!” Still…

Anyhoo, since my first sojourn a few years ago, I’ve become a pro at traveling now. I have my crazy rituals, but I get by. Would you believe each flight I do my best to spot the Air Marshall? There’s comfort. Once I think I’ve ascertained the official, I ease back in my seat and enjoy the ride.

I’ll be the first person to admit I perpetually run on CP time. Again, laughing at myself, when I fly I tend to step out this tardiness and be as prompt as possible. Rest is almost out of the question. This last trip I was up until three hours before I had to get up to get ready to go to the airport. I don’t know anyone who’s fond of security at airports, but I want the experience over ASAP. When they first started doing the full body screening at my local airport, I said screw it. If I can go faster to the get to my boarding gate, y’all can have as much free peeps as needed. Just get me to the gate on time!

The last few times I flew to Cali, like Ms. Badu, I’ve chosen a window. Seeing the plane take off, watching the clouds around actually brings out the lil kid in me and I’ve learned to relax much more. Take off still grips by the short hair, by it's all good. That sudden lift off the ground makes me giddy and still nervous, but I’m cool with it now. I'm learning to live with the exhilaration or it all.

By far, United Airlines is my favorite carrier. I’ve gotten a tad spoiled because I think I addicted to Gershwin’s Rhapsody in Blue while hearing the in the event of emergency instructions. However this last time I flew Continental which was a better experience! The seats were wider. I had more leg room. And I’ll be damned, I event enjoy the in-flight movie (they showed the Lincoln Lawyer starring Matthew McConaughey. Not bad).

I have to admit each time I fly into Los Angeles, I get a bit mystified. Seeing the sprawling expanse is still strange. I mean, yeah, we got big cities on the East Coast, but generally everything just looks like an urban jungle to me. La La Land seems surreal. Again, the impressionable child in me, still gets awestruck.

My boy Jay was waiting for me when I got to LAX this trip. After getting my eat-on, my only agenda was to get to the beach, which we did. We ended up in Redondo Beach and Manhattan Beach. Cool, though I still hadn't been to Long Beach and wanted to see what all the fuss was about. I got there eventually, just not the day I landed.

After that we caught up with brother-in-blogging, Wonder Man, and hung out a bit. Some how every time I meet up with Wonder Man I always ended up on Rodeo Drive! LOL. Maybe it's that Louis Vuitton influence that he's a compelling spell over me. But Rodeo was a trip 'n a half. I longer feel like a tourist when I can laugh at other folks posin' and primpin' in front of the high-end shops.

Later, we left that scene to party at a BBQ at another friend’s house. That was some interesting shizz there and is worthy of it's own post.

Definitely a great start to a wonderful vacay….

In Joy and Hope,
-Ian

Not So Lovin' It!

Did I deserve a break today? Yeah, but not this kind...

Ugh! I'm feeling miserable this morning. Oh why don't I learn the good lesson of healthy eating?!?! So for Lent I gave up eating at most fast food establishments, with the exception of Subway (most of their stuff is pretty decent)...

Since Easter was yesterday, Lent ended. I did good. Didn't cheat once though I was tempted many times. This morning I knew I'd be pressed for time so I chose to stop @ Mickey D's for breakfast. Big mistake! My stomach is growling and bloated now. I feel like walking death and the sad part is I'm @ work. Lordhavmercy!!!!

I think another 40 day fast is in order.... *burp*
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Remember...

A Thought...

"Happiness, is indeed, only a thought a way."

True. So true.

Hm, Him So Handsome...

This morning on the drive to work I caught myself gawking at a beautiful guy standing outside the barbershop on the corner. I don't know why he was so captivating, he was just distracted me so. Perhaps because I've been struggling with self and a tad lonely something latched on to this Adonis hanging at The BMCC, but all I know is my mood today has been rather downplayed.

It's strange for me sometimes when I see visions of everything want/wanted to be in life... The perfect body, vibe, swagga, aura, whatever...I often am caught astounded by how I came to be in my own set of circumstances while others have seemingly progressed and achieved poise, grace, and all that jazz. It goes beyond sexuality for I often quite feel there's a place among my gay brethren as well. So happened?

Catching up with recent posts Pharaoh and UrsoVain wrote got me pondering about the great big game we're all playing; whether it's to find a mate or just make social acquaintances, you gotta have skills to fit right with the other players. Admittedly, I don't often know the rules! I guess that's the nature of life and I need to accept it, but it still doesn't make it right.

Perhaps Darwin was right after all? Survival of the fittest, eh? Hm, guess l'm losing fast...for now.

Crash and Burnt

....Um. I guess I messed up! *gulp* But it's all good. Never say and old fool can't learn from mistakes, and I just made a huuuuuge mistake. LOL.

I always believe that if you put good intentions ahead of you and work diligently, well, the Universe would smile favorably upon you. Uh no. Nice guys finish last baby. Piss or be pissed on... that's the lesson. Say it with me Ian.

Uh no. Not gonna do it...yet I find myself wondering if having hope is just a sense of delusional thinking. Hmm. Oh I'll be thinking about this all day.

For now, I have a job to do. So let me do it....

No.

Not negative, but affirmative. Don't be so insecure, boyo. Rejection, coming in multiple forms in one day is no reason to throw in the towel. In fact, give your pain voice, express it. Simply be kind, never malicious, and then pass on up to the Creator. There are lessons to be learned from "no." Sometimes the very answer we seek is in that simple one word response. "No" is powerful. "No" can be painful, but only if you make it.

Use it to your advantage, and everything will be fine....

I'll explain later.