Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Hm, Him So Handsome...

This morning on the drive to work I caught myself gawking at a beautiful guy standing outside the barbershop on the corner. I don't know why he was so captivating, he was just distracted me so. Perhaps because I've been struggling with self and a tad lonely something latched on to this Adonis hanging at The BMCC, but all I know is my mood today has been rather downplayed.

It's strange for me sometimes when I see visions of everything want/wanted to be in life... The perfect body, vibe, swagga, aura, whatever...I often am caught astounded by how I came to be in my own set of circumstances while others have seemingly progressed and achieved poise, grace, and all that jazz. It goes beyond sexuality for I often quite feel there's a place among my gay brethren as well. So happened?

Catching up with recent posts Pharaoh and UrsoVain wrote got me pondering about the great big game we're all playing; whether it's to find a mate or just make social acquaintances, you gotta have skills to fit right with the other players. Admittedly, I don't often know the rules! I guess that's the nature of life and I need to accept it, but it still doesn't make it right.

Perhaps Darwin was right after all? Survival of the fittest, eh? Hm, guess l'm losing fast...for now.


Roger Poladopoulos said...

Sometimes there just doesn't seem to be a master plan. You just have to take it one moment at a time.

Corey @ I'll Keep You Posted said...

My Friend! Weilding The Axe is really LOOKING GREAT here! Your posts are tight and straight ON IT! No, I haven't ignored the CONTENT of late - I've saving that for our convo. But, I just wanted to tell you that you are REALLY WORKING the blog game and you're a MASTER AT IT!

bgrant said...

i am glad to find someone out here who admits that they dont know all the rules. i feel better now bc i dont know all the rules either, *sigh*

Anonymous said...

Loving this blog, Ian!!!


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