Hi Hi Hi! Or is that ho, ho, ho, eh? More like snow, snow, snow. Fah! LOL. Surprisingly, the blog is still online as I haven't taken it down since I quit writing in July. 2013 has been a bitch year and I'm glad to see it almost over.
I've been tinkering with the notion of restarting the blog for 2014 just because so much is going on and I need an outlet, but I learned my lesson by leaving the vulnerability door open..assholes will walk in. Smart-ass, know-it-all doe-eyed ones in particular, but I digress. I was glad for the respite from blogging. Seems many of my brethren have gone to pasture in 2013 as well. It gets tiring to stay relevant or interesting. Readership is fickle and I just don't have to time, inclination, or energy to throw my whole self into this setting again. Maybe on a part time basis, maybe. We'll see. Regardless whether I resume blogging or not, many of the old posts will be deleted. If I do resume, they'll be a blog name change and link update. I think the Axe has too much negative energy from the past and if I do resume, I need to shake the dirty from betwixt my feet and start clean! Again, we'll see what happens next month.
I mainly wanted to check in since its snowing here like a mutha and my ass is inside, comfy, cozy. I'm not going out this house until Monday if I can help it, screw it! Hahaha Stay warm and safe wherever you be this weekend. If I don't pen anymore until after the Holidays, be safe, joyful and merry!
I've been delaying this post for some time but I think we all knew it was coming. I've decided to stop writing Weilding the Axe. I'm tired of blogging, well at least in this format. I still have my Tumblr blog which has been a complete joy. There is no criticism or snotty folks about to chastise shit they don't understand, well informed about, and even know me enough to make a valid judgment....but I digress.
Onward and upward. Focus forward, never retrograde baby boy.
My reasons for ending the blog is my heart hasn't been in it for some months. I didn't think anything I posted was relevant to the current needs of the community/society; I was just too focused on myself. Yes, I used this blog as an outlet to work through shizz to relax, relate, release. Some days I got positive support. Other days I'd get the slappy London affair just brandy about in my face about how much of an asshole I was or exactly how whiny or self-pontificating I could be. Well, shit. LOL. Don't we all take to a soap box er'ry now and then to focus on our beliefs? Our agendas. Let the naysayers say nay, but I would not change a thing I did in the past seven years.
This overall experience has been fun and educational.
Now, I promised not to make this a long tearful goodbye. Really, I won't. The people who I value know I value them and thank on the regular. I've met and broken bread with more than a few of you through this blog. Traveled to places I didn't think I'd ever go on my own. Tested the limits of fear, conquered shame, and made some wonderful friends. I will thank personally my brothers-in-arms Pharaoh, Wonder Man (now tha fantabbbbbbbbbbulous Viktahhhhhh Kerney!), Amanofcolours, Mardi Reid, (or whatever his current moniker du jour be), Corey @ I'll Keep You Posted, and Roger Poladopoulos. There are others I probably should give shout outs to, but way too many to list in a brief post. Della Reese
There are a few post that are on automatic that I'll leave scheduled through the remainder of the year. If I get sick of this space, I might just delete them and put 'em out of their misery. LOl.
So in the end, I thank all the folks I've met...the good, the bad, and truly outrageous (truly, truly!) Y'all made it real while we walked together and my words cannot do justice in this moment. I'll leave knowing I've become a better thanks to this blog. I did me, and stayed me while I wrote the blogs... Never was a fake ass bitch one solitary moment! I leave the same advice in return, "DO YOU, BE YOU."Never settle to anyone else's standard. Word.
I had a profound crush on Mikey Craig, bassist for Culture Club, back in the day. I heard this on one of the easy listening stations yesterday. Said to myself what perfect song for Flashback Friday.
I wonder whatever happened to other members of CC? Boy George was in and out of rehab for the longest time, but after the band broke up, you never heard anything else about Roy, Mikey, or Jon.
Hmm. Was that the thing in the 80s? Like Wham's Andrew Ridgeley or Curt Smith from Tears for Fears, they just dropped off the face of the Earth. Perhaps life just returned to normalcy. One can only hope....
I don't think I did a post last year on the 100th year anniversary of the sinking of the RMS Titanic, but I will mark the 101st. It's funny, I was watching the classic Titanic movie with Barbara Stanwick the other on TCM and had forgotten the disastrous anniversary date was approaching.
Now, let me say that I've been fascinated by the tragedy since I was a small child. The many mysteries...how did the ship really sink, why weren't more passengers saved, pondering why Classism existed in the early 20th Century...on and on.
There's a Titanic exhibit making its rounds across the States right now. Last I heard it was at the Franklin Institute in Philadelphia. Perhaps I'll take a visit.
Anyhoo, I know posts have been light lately. There's drama going on in my life lately. Too many slappy London days going on. Posts will continue to be sporadic until life calms down a bit. Work has been busy. Several of my friends are in a state of flux. Ugh! Have I mentioned taces?!?!?! You know I waited until the last minute to file, right?
As far as dating, Big D and I had been hot and heavy, but now that we decided to go exclusive, well, it's sorta gone from sugar to shit. I;ve been grumpy that we haven't been spending as much time as I'd prefer. Darryl constantly works! If you knew what he did for a living, well it's a commendable profession, so I'm proud he's helping others, but damn. Papa Red Bear needs some lovin TLC. I ended up venting on the phone for four hours with Pharaoh Friday night. I hadn't intended to do so, but Pharaoh has that talent for drawing out things.
In his analysis, my beloved li'l brother swears because nobody has "broken the cookie jar" there's maybe some awkwardness and undue tension. LOL. Well that might just be a little more details than care to know, but no, we haven't gone there yet. There are reasons and perhaps I'll expound upon them in another post.
Wow. I'd completely forgotten about Art of Noise. Found this while surfing across the Blogosphere.
OK, so I probably say this with every Friday Flashback tune I post, but this song really does take me back! I was in Junior High School in '83 when this came out. So young, so naive. LOL. Well I'm not so young anymore, but still a tad naive.
The riff in this is catching and I like the vibe. I might just need to add this to my iPod.
I've never been one for dolls, never collected them, never wanted one. That is until the Billy dolls came out. I don't know why, but I always wanted a Billy doll. Call it kinky, but the fact this dolls are 'male structurally intact' is amusing to me.
I say structurally intact because the genitals are a tad disproportionate to the rest of the body. Then again, Barbie has been outta whack for decades. Supposedly
, if a real person, Barbie wouldn't be able to stand. Hm. What would a life sized Billy do? Probably scare the hell outta some bottoms boy, that's for sure.
Like his female counterpart, Billy came in a wide variety of different facets of the gay community. Sometimes believable, other times quite laughable. I did consider purchasing one a few years ago, but thought against it. I mean, how the hell would I explain the damn thing in my house? That and I couldn't rationalize plunking down the greenbacks to pay for one. Billy comes with a hefty price tag!!!
Anyone out there own a version of Billy? If so, what inspired you to get one?
While this blog is not really intended to show adult content, I can't guarantee that an occasional image of male nudity won't appear. Be advised that this blog is intended to be read by people with an open mind. I don't claim any rights to the images nor do I have any knowledge of the sexuality of persons featured (unless they are openly gay...duh). Enjoy yourself and take a small step in my every day life and pondering...
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