Saturday, August 1, 2009

I Didn't Die?


Bizarre, macabre, and strangeness perplexes Ian this morning.

Last night/early this morning I was sleeping soundly when the Sandman paid me a visit with a host of dreams, nightmares really, which I am searching for meaning in the waking zone. Strange and curious.

Be advised, this is slightly graphic and distrubing. I'm toning the content down to some degree, only because as I'm shaking off sleep, the dreams are fading. But I'm curious? What is the meaning?

Big Brother Corey? You're the expert in my life on dream analysis and interpretation since my Grandmama has departed this Earth. Got any insights? Read on:

Rarely do I dream in color. That right there is telling. From what I know, most folks dream in black and white. I dream in both spectrum's. Now from what I can remember, the dream was divided into two parts. The setting was was in a chamber, perhaps a prison, basement, parking garage type area. Not much light, very industrial. Those of you familiar with Gary Heidnik, think of his setting. I was with a group of men, all Black or Latino, nondescript on sexuality, and we were fighting in some type of gang related beef. Guns blazing, shoots were being fired left and right. I could hear the guns, see the bullet holes in the walls. Through those holes, I could see rays of sunlight.

Not sure of the time of year, but it must have been warmer. Anyway, in order to escape the war, several of us choose these "chambers" or in-ground pits, bunkers within this bunker setting, to survive. I vividly and clearly saw men jumping in this concrete areas two men at a time, some clothed, some in tatters, to escape the onslaught. The last bunker was someone I knew, but I now cannot place his face. I jumped in with him and pulled the trap door closed over our heads. I knew a feeling of safety, comfort. The next scene was of some man, this time not of any particular ethnic origin, but known to us all, rescuing the survivors. He was someone in authority, but not necessarily a police officer....

Part two is where it gets strange and scary. The setting has changed. The spectrum changed to color. I'm not sure of the locale. Perhaps a college quad style dormitory room, perhaps a sanitarium? Perhaps a camp dorm...something with a common room area. Now I said sanitarium earlier because of this. There was a man in a closet who was bound and chained, the picture and thought lead me to believe he was Charles Manson (What the Fuck?!?!?) and he professed to be Jesus. He kept spouting scriptures and gospel. Salvation and encouraged the men in this area to believe and follow him? I remember there was some kind of alter in the front of the room. Not sure what the purpose was for the altar, but it was there. This seemed spurn Manson/Jesus to rattle off more dogma. He tried to convince us he was our friend.

Now this is interesting part.

At some point, "the guards" brought food to Manson/Jesus and had to be unchained. I don't remember what happened to the guards, but then the Mason person got loose from the closet/holding area and began killing the people in the room. I knew in my dream I was sleeping, could hear myself snoring, but I know that also in the dream I was asleep and felt him upon me, take a knife, and slit my throat. I perceived the blood. In the dream, I awoke from the dream to see the Mason-character killing another person by stabbing them and then placing their bloody mangled body into a closet. The blood was crimson and bright. After doing this, the Mason-man came back to check to see if he I was dead, and I recall feigning sleep as I was still bleeding, but not dead. That's when I awoke. It's was about 3:40 AM.

Weird, huh? Now I know enough about dream analysis and interpretation that nothing is ever what it truly seems. Representation of the subconscious distorts true significance, but in this scenario, I absolutely am lost. And what's more, I was under the notion that if you died in a dream, you die in real life? (isn't that true? Maybe I've watched too many horror and chiller movies?!?!)

OK folks. Give Ian a clue. Wot's this here shit about? What message is my unconscious mind sending me?

8 comments:

Corey said...

I wouldn't be TOO ALARMED!
Dying in a dream is ofen indicative of REBIRTH !!!

I am also not the expert !!!
But I will give you a cold reading on this since you asked for it!
Again, I am not the expert !!!

The Black/White of it is the MUNDANE of it! The everyday, commonplace ROUTINE of what you know. In this everyday existence, you are constantly fighting with SELF in your own personal prison or hell. At WAR with yourSELF! OHH! But Thank God for those rays of sunshine through the bullet-holes, because you KNOW there is HOPE, DELIVERANCE and BETTER DAYS ON THE HORIZON IF YOU CAN JUST GET THROUGH THE WAR!

But those bunker holes or chambers are your own private spaces you retreat to in times of strife, intense struggle or WAR. The guy whose face you can't rememeber ~ that was YOU, and you closed the lid once you knew you had you SAFE in that space!

Kick it to COLOR: IT'S ACTION TIME AND IT'S GOING TO BE VIVID ! !
Try to consider that the man, bound and chained in the closet, WITH A DUAL PERSONALITY of Manson/destruction vs. Jesus/Hope&Redemption are variants of our own positive and negative aspects, or in this case YOURS! From a place of being bound and chained, WONDERFUL, POSITIVE THINGS escape his lips. Consider tha it might be the HIGHER YOU WHO KNOWS BETTER!

But as soon as "Manson/negativity" is RELEASED from the CHAINS and BOUNDS and DARK PLACES of a CHAMBER or HOLE or CLOSET and steps into the REAL TIME of COLOR and VIVID TIME, he gets CONFUSED because he's STRUGGLING WITH HIS DUALITY and he starts to turn on self to SELF SABOTAGE by killing, stabbing and maiming NOT SOMEONE ELSE BUT SELF!!

THERE IS ANOTHER WAY TO LOOK AT THIS: It could be that the once the HIGHER YOU/SELF THAT KNOWS BETTER GOT RELEASED HE FINALLY KILLED THE OLD YOU/SELF IN THE ROOM ONCE AND FOR ALL! He STABBED ALL THE NEGATIVE ASPECTS OF YOU TO DEATH, SLIT HIS THROAT AND THEN CAME BACK ONCE MORE JUST TO SEE IF THAT SHIT WAS DEAD !!!

Maybe YOU HAVE THE CHOICE OF DETERMINING HOW THE STORY GOES!

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Marcia Dream said...

I agree that dying in a dream is often a good thing. It signifies that an old part of your life is dying and you are moving on to something new, which can be better.

All the war/fighting in the dream could have something to do with conflicts that have been going on inside you.

The Charles Manson guy could be a part of you that you don't like and don't want to face - but is there inside you, nonetheless. (What Jung called your "shadow".)

Stabbing - letting blood flow - could be a way of releasing things that are poisoning you. So allowing yourself to face the "Manson" in yourself might actually free you up to become a healthier person.

The idea that Manson is saying he is Jesus could be about your not having trust yourself.

Cocoa Rican said...

I wrote the below and then read Corey's description and thought...WOW...Corey you are the shyt! Loved it!

My take was very simple when I consider the others...but here goes...

First, that there is a perceived threat, but that threat affects not only you but others. Together, you’re all fighting that threat and though you believe it is virtually unbeatable, you believe as a team, the fight is bearable.
Second, there appears to be someone that spews intelligent truths – maybe even religious dogma- who you believe is a fraud. You see their deception as dangerous. Ultimately, you do see yourself as strong and resilient, because even when faced with being cut, you live to pay attention (even feign sleep) to survive. The short-and-skinny, YOU’RE A SURVIVOR.
I don’t believe you die in life if you die in your dreams – maybe because I’ve managed to fall and hit the ground in my dreams, get shot, get stabbed…and woken up thinking, “Thank goodness it wasn’t real!”

ToddyEnglish said...

Corey said a lot of things that I was going to write about. I'll be back with my interpretation tomorrow, as it will be lengthy.

Anyway, when you die in a dream you do die in real life, metaphorically speaking. It is about rebirth and transformation.
I am learning to read tarot cards as well and the death card is always the most positive when pulled.

Scott747 said...

You might want to take another short look at your July 29 post. Looks like a new beginning for you.

Thomas said...

Damn, Corey! Maybe I'll send you one of my old dream journals! You good, boi!

And Ian, sounds like there are some serious transformative issues going on for you. It is very positive and encouraging when you are being offering an opportunity to transcend your old self and seek new life.

Your Spirit seems very much like mine, always a tug of war between the lower self and the higher self. We keep sitting on the fence, though, not really choosing what direction to go in. I think that's why these dreams sometimes force the issue bringing the struggle to light. We need to move on instead of being stuck between heaven and hell.

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