Tuesday, May 4, 2010

The Sleeping Dragon.

This morning I find myself struggling. I'm not even sure what to key here, just know that my mind is outta sorts and I'm feeling rather disappointed and not so much down, but unfulfilled. There's the big question that I presented to a friend last night which was "What more is there to life?" Isn't there more than what I have and what I am? Therapy has stirred the pot, and I'm grateful, but today will be the penultimate challenge to practice all the little mantras to defeat the negative messages I send to myself on daily basis. I know where the dragon sleeps, I just don't feel like being the brave knight to slay the beast just yet....


Roger Poladopoulos said...

Let the dragon sllep a little longer. You'll know when the time is right.

sunshine said...

Boy, can I relate to this post!
Especially since I turned 40 last fall, I find myself questioning decisions I'm made in the past that have led me to where I am now.
Should I have done that instead of this?? Is this all I am ever going to be??

I guess to some degree we all wrestle with these thoughts and fears.
Change is very difficult. Especially if you are somewhat comfortable with the way things are.
Like you say too.. negative self talk can talk us right out of doing a lot of things.

It's never easy. :) Just do what you can.


Christy Ivory said...

Not even sure what your name is.....but I happened upon your blog and read your first post..... Life is tough at times.....I feel like we were put on this earth for a purpose and we are here to be tested and tried.. I am a Christian women and believe strongly in him...He has felt our pain and carried our sorrows..He knows you and knows what you are going through..He loves you. Let him take away your pain..He suffered and died for you. He loves you that much.

Anonymous said...

I am this body,

I am this feeling-desire-will moving in me,

I am this spirit of love redeeming into wholeness,

I am heart being born anew.

Why does it hurt so much?

Will I really make it?

Yes, You say, yes.

Yuuki said...

even if you don't know yet i believe hardly that there is more to life may be you just need more time ? I don't know.. but I know it's very difficult to think optimistic but if you do that you feel a lot better eventhough its difficult.. I know I'm just a 17 years old girl and may be im naive but eventhough life is trying to make me lose I always somehow believe in me...
Hope you'll find a way to defeat the negative thoughts


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BEAST said...

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