Happy Halloween!

Breakfast at Tiffany's Final Scene

Since I'm kinda stuck in the house tonight with damn snow, figured I'd sit down with a bag of popcorn and watch good movies. By far, Breakfast At Tiffany's is one my faves of all time... And George was kinda hot back in the day, no? LOL.

"Mooooooooon Riiiiivaaaah."

I love it.

Bromance?

I'm not sure what the context of this was, but Spidey was a bit sassy back at the Punisher!

Hmmm

So is this what really happened to the dinosaurs????

Another Work Day

I'm keeping positive this morning that today will not be a repeat of yesterday!

Work was a colossal pain in the arse and I'm not feelin' the vibe to get up, get ready, and drag myself into the lion's den for another round. But, as I said, I'm going to keep a positive outlook and pray all will be copacetic.

Rihanna - S&M

I LOVE this song! I blast this too and fro' work every day. Lord what people must think when I pull in the parking lot! Hahahaha.

There are TOO many words..

I could say thangs about this pic, but I won't.
Hehehe.
Reminds me of a friend I know up in New York.
Ahh, if only.
Yes, it truly WOULD be a good mornin'!

Make the most of it today folks...
-Ian

G'Morning

I might not be gettin' the g'mornin' kiss, but by golly! I'm gettin' pancakes at Sunday Brunch with some my crew today, dammit! Hahaha. Can't wait. Been a minute since I've seen a few of my friends and I've missed their company. Additionally, last night I was playin' Stupid Cupid, trynna convince a cohort to take his boo-boo out for brunch today since they're reaching a milestone in their relationship. He laughed, but confessed he's broke as a joke...

Hm. Have some pancakes boys, then mate like rabbits!!! I'm dedicating this comic to them this morning. Bon Champs Mes Amis!

In Love & Faith,
-Ian

McGarbage Man!

I fell this afternoon and gave into temptation. I stopped at Mickey D's and grabbed a McRib Value Meal. To say it was a McCraptacular meal experience is an understatement. *groan* I shoulda known better but I was hungry. Had just come back from the farmer's market and was in no mood to wait.

Yuck!

Science Fiction, Double Feature....

I love it! Rocky Horror meets DC Comics.

Progress Report

I know it's only been a few days, less than a week, but I wanted to keep a progress report with my weight loss. With the exception of the first day, I haven't stepped on the scale again. that would be self-defeating. However, in just a few days, I can tell with the small changes I've made, it's made some difference.

I've endeavored to still to a 1,000 calories a day and get as much activity squeezed in as possible. It's kicking my ass a bit, but I keep thinking about the final reward...

That's all for now...

Love Thoughts

Yesterday a friend asked me, innocently enough, if I was still single. Hmph. Still. I had to laugh because I understood what they were getting at. It's been a minute since I've stepped foot into the dating pool. Answering my friend, I told them simply I'm not ready. Their response? Of course, what am I awaiting for?

Hm. Interesting. What exactly am I waiting for? I'm getting older and life waits for no man. But I know the deficits I have and the things I need to work on before I enter a relationship with another person. I know I can be selfish. I'm set in my own ways. Plus I still carry too much baggage from the past that I'm constantly working on... So, no. I'm not ready. And yet....I have to admit fall makes me a bit nostalgic for love. Coming home to somebody. Spending time with that special someone, cuddlin' up, boo'd up in love.

Over the weekend I did the family thing with a friend and their son. We went out on a hay ride, picked pumpkins, went shopping for a Halloween costume for the boy, and finally out to dinner. It was nice. Very endearing. Looking back on that experience, yeah it warms my heart to what I could have if I get my act together. Maybe someday.... I just know that time isn't today.

For now, I'm just going to trust in the old phrase "All in good time."

When I Grow Up...

Click and read. I laughed myself stupid when I first saw this...

More Lenny

OK, I do promise to stop doing so many picture posts, but to be honest, I've been having fun. Maybe I should consider just doing a Tumblr blog? Nah. Those are a dime a dozen. Not knockin 'em, but I do like writing a little something from time to time. But yeah, back Mr. Kravitz, he's the truth! I swear he get's sexier with age...

On A New Path

This year has had it's challenges with my weight goals. I was doing well before summer came, and I fell hard. Since then I've been on a roller coaster, up down up down up down. I'm actually sick of it. Time to set things to right for once and for all.

Today started my quest to permanent weight loss and so far it's been OK? Drinking lots of water and watching my in-take. Yes I have a number goal. Not sharing yet. Not sharing all my intentions at the moment either. My only hope is that once all is said and done I can live with my decisions and feel happy. Only time will tell, I suppose...

QOTD: Things That Go Boo

Do you believe in ghosts? Spirits? Thangs that go bump in the night? I' do. I've seen a few in my day too. Rule number one, don't mess with stuff you don't understand...especially this time of the year.

Got it? Good.

Good Monday Mornin'

I'm starting mine with a smile... Hope you do too.

My Favorite Black Gay Boy Fantasies

One of my favorite cartoonists has to be Victor Hodge who draws the strip Black Gay Boy Fantasy. It's compelling. It's real. It's life. You can find the link to his strip through his main blog here.

Was There Any Doubt?

Truth...

Just A Few Hours More

Didn't sleep well last night. I really am not feelin' the mood to get up and go to work. Can't I just turn over and pretend it's Saturday already? Nope! There be bills to pay. Time to get up and earn some paper. *groan*

At least it's FRIDAY!!!

Halleloo

You Deserve A {blank} Today...

I have no words...LOL

Busted!

I love this photo! I have to laugh cause I would be the fool doing the same thing and get caught trynna snap a pix like this. I'm not very sly. Hm, I do have a fair share of candid photos of dudes caught unaware on my Blackberry though....

Pride In The Neighbor

There are little moments where I have to stop and smile. Truly.

This morning on my way to work I caught a sight that you don't see too often in my neck of the woods. Two black men, in their 30's, holding hands, all boo'd up happily, without a care in the world, walking down the street.

Yes, it was a beautiful sight to see. And just when I had given up on open expression of romance here, at least for black men. I see more often with men of other races, but rarely with gay black men in Harrisburg.

This isn't the big city. This is central PA. Attitudes are strange around here. Not necessarily backwards, just conservative. I wouldn't be surprised seeing this in Philly, DC, New York, Atlanta, LA, wherever... Openly displaying same sex affection like that in my conservative, judgmental, one-horse town community? Wow.

All right y'all. I tip my hat. Yeah, I'm gonna hold on to that small moment all day.

Thank you gentlemen,
-Ian

God is always on time

God is always on time.

Sometimes I get myself in a funk or caught up in self-imposed challenges that I forget He's always there. I woke up kinda funky yesterday, not quite feelin' it, when I received a text from a friend that essential said to stop what I was doing, lift of my hands, and give praise and thanks to God.

I expressed to my friend that text was just right on time. From that moment it took me out of myself and reminded me to be thankful for things I have. I can't focus on the things I don't have. The best feeling in the world is when I'm connected to my real spirit!

Oh so good!

Who Says?

Hm. Don't tell my brother in blogging Wonder Man about this!

Ian Fun Fact

I hate red velvet cake. Why, I don't know. I'm just not fond of the stuff....

Whitney Houston - Greatest Love Of All

Ah Whitney. This song has been around for what seem forever, but nobody sung it better. I'm holding on to this today...

The Door Has Always Been...Well, Open.

I suppose I shouldn't let National Coming Out Day go by with out addressing a lil something on the topic. Really, for yours truly, I don't suppose there has been any special day I officially came out, I just have been.

Coming into acceptance has been the most interesting journey. I have my good days; I have my bad. I guess everything got especially interesting after I got divorced and declared myself free from the monotony of the life I had been living. My ex-wife knew. I was doing the bi thang at the time, but I guess for me, it was inevitable I would end up where I am now.

My divorce was almost ten years ago now. Since then, well life has been interesting. It has been easy because oft I feel like the proverbial fish out of water, but I also realize I make my own life so complicated. Huh. Silly middle-aged man that I am. LOL. But I'm glad for what has come and experiences. The heartache, the joy, and friends made... yes. I will say it is worth it.

I think if memory does serve me right, the first time I acknowledged my sexuality to someone was in seventh grade to this geeky little white dude. To say it was a mistake would be wrong, it just put me on a path that looking back, I find amusing. A few years went by before opened myself up again and started telling friends in college. I've always been a lil "off," so I would expect most folk figured out the real deal. Mind you, I was sexually abused, so life was filled with complexities and stupid delusions. I realize too I had some resources at my disposal I chose not to use that COULD have made life so much simpler, but because I was too ignorant, too caught up with what someone would think, I never utilized the gifts in front of me to their full potential.

Twenty years later, I do give blessing and praises to friends, family, and "family" that were so patience with this crazy man until I got my act together. My ex-wife is my best friend and is my strongest ally. To say that I wouldn't have made it this far without her is a huge understatement. So something productive did come out our marriage...I'm still on the road to discovery. I often chide myself that I make a horrible gay man, but at least I'm trying to live my truth. It's definitely better than living a lie. Amen.

In Love & Hope,
-Ian

Strange Dreams

Hm. Riddle me this Batman... What does it mean when you have a dream about getting a haircut? Now, it's true I'm about due for one, but it hasn't been on the forefront of my mind that I should be dreaming about it. Anyone good at dream interpretation?

Good Monday Morning

Good Morning Monday! Hopefully you're rested, recharged, and ready to take on the new work week. I think I am. Didn't do much this past weekend, which sometimes is a good thing. Lots to do this morning, so I'm just throwing together a quick eye candy post.

Be successful in all you do today...

-Ian

Yessuh

Yes, I love me some Lenny...

The Mirror, The Towel, & the iPhone

Good Morning Blake

Hmm, ESPN really made me take a second look at Black Griffen. Never really noticed him before yesterday, Alright now!

Friday!!!

It's Friday! I'm so grateful I made it through this week. Hope your weekend is all you anticipate it to be.

Trio

Thanks to my Facebook buddy Andrew Caldwell, who all credit goes to, for this beautiful photo...

Man of the Day: Trio

Meaningless Posts

Yes, I've been posting a few picture posts through out the week. Hold on tight, they're scheduled through out the remainder of the week. A friend last night left a comment that I wasn't sure if he was implying about the individual post or for the theme over all this week. Hm? In any case, I needed a reprieve from posting serious stuff because I'm going through deep changes and if I really posted the darker thoughts in my head, well, it just would be pretty. I'm not in a good place but I really understand the old saying of fake it till you make it...

Torso

Morning Already?!?!

Lord, I'm tired and I can't believe it's time to get ready for work already. Why does the work day go so sloooooow and the night fly with the wink of an eye? I'll try to do a post from work if there's time. The office has been insane of late.

Yes Virginia, it's time for another vacation. Soon I hope!

Good Morning

She's Electric

Oh, how I did love Storm back in the day....

Man Of The Day: Monday

Any way the wind blows

Last week wasn't a good week. I'd almost say it was one of the worst for me. Things lately have been cropping up that I don't understand or am at a loss for explanation. I find myself confused and demystified by life and wondering where my place is in the grand cosmic scheme of things. Perhaps its a moment of mid-life crisis, but it feels isolating. Very lonely.I'm trying to focus on the positive aspects I have going on, but which each positive a thousand negatives rise from the depths of my memory and past and all I feel is a profound sense of shame. What's going on?

I'm not sure what triggered it, but I have some clue as to the solution. The solutions cuts to the core of who I am, or at least think I am, and I realize I need to do some soul searching. Then again, I also believe I know where the restlessness started...an innocence delving into fortune telling. A simple question returned by a very complex answer. I didn't like the answer. Perhaps that's why folks should stay away from the Tarot. Sometimes the answers you seek aren't meant to be revealed all at once. I know I'm rambling, but too is on my mind...

Seasons Of A Man's Life.

I'm tired of the rain... I'm tired of fall already. In a lonely space, in a lonely time. Hopin' times passes quickly.