Men come and go...

but a loyal cat is a friend and companion for the rest of its life! Yeah, I'm in a mood tonight. There are just some days where I get really disgusted with my love life (or lack thereof one).

I realized while
reading a book in bed how forever loyal, always faithful, by my side in a heartbeat if I need them, my cats are. My oldest is ever-present to keep me company; laying on my back or snuggling on my feet to keep them warm.

Men are fly-by-night! Yeah the guy I like knows I love him...it's a long story and I refuse to get too morose over it.

January Snow Shower

After leaving my volunteer job this evening, I decided to visit Borders Bookstore and browse the latest books, comics, magazines, and calendars. I still hadn't bought a calendar for my work cubical and wanted to buy a tasteful hanging calendar before all that remained dwindled to 'Hello Kitty' or'365-a-Day Republican Quotes'. I spent a good while looking around. Finally, I had purchased the Advocate, Genre, Clik Magazine, some trashy gossip mag, a bargain novel, and a coveted Pittsburgh Steelers calender. As I was leaving the store,I noticed it was snowing pretty heavily and I was quickly taken back to the winters we used to have here in PA when I was much younger.

It's funny how something so insignificant can take you back to your childhood. It's been a few years since we have a major snow storm in my part of the state. Ironically, a co-worker and I were talking about the big storms we'd always have as children right around Valentine's Day or President's Day. We don't get big storms like that anymore. Why? Is it because of global warming? Possibly. But walking out of the store took me back briefly to a time when I was a little more naive, less stubborn, and could enjoy the gentleness of snow shower. The thrill of the snow during the winter, hoping enough would fall to close school in the morning. Would enough come so we'd be closed? You'd hate to have just enough fall so you only had a two-hour delay! School delays were the worst. It only threw the daily schedule into chaos and lunches on those days always sucked. No. Only a school closing made everything seem right.

As a child it seemed so wonderful and mysterious. I have good memories of people putting chains on the tires of their cars or spending hours digging out cars parked on the street and setting a folding chair to let people know that was your spot (you don't see much of that anymore).

The snow seems different as an adult; its become a big nuisance. I never leave the house on time for work and for a job that never closes even with a declared State of Emergency, snow is just a pain in the ass that's going to make me even more late for work. It's lost its precious mystique to me. But for tonight, for just a brief moment, I remembered my youthful joy seeing white flakes fall from the sky, the cool crisp feeling as the brisk air bit at my face, and the feeling I'd never be warm again. It all makes me smile...

Famous Hotties

Just a few famous men that turn my key! A few guys from across the celebrity spectrum: athletes, musicians, actors, new-casters...lions, tigers, and bears, OH MY!

Amir Khan, boxer by trade; Michael Phelps, Olympic Gold Medalist; Vin Diesel, actor; Tim McGraw, Country Music Artist; SisQo, Musician; Jake Gyllenhall, actor; Amare Stoudemire, Professional NBA player; Anderson Cooper, CNN news correspondent; Lenny Kravitz, musician; and Eric Balfour, actor. Smoking hot!

More Sunday Sexy

Just a few images showing intimacy between two Black men. Some may think its wrong, but I think its hot. Don't you love the Internet? I mean I can remember twenty years ago the only source for beautiful images for gay men were magazines...

Sunday Sexy

Billy Bean

An excellent read. I really suggest checking it out if you haven't already.

Thank You George Takei!

Long before he was "Out," I had met George Takei back in my freshman year of college at a Star Trek Convention. Now everybody who knows me is aware I have a little bit of a sci-fi geek living inside of me. Meeting "Mr. Sulu" was an awesome experience. He is humble,candid, and one the nicest celebrities I've had the pleasure of meeting (I've met more than a few well known celebs, but those encounters are topics for other posts).

Of the gay celebrities that have made a personal impact on my life, George Takei and Billy Bean came to mind (I also had the pleasure of meeting Billy Bean a few years ago at Penn State for LGBT event on campus. In addition to being a science fiction fan, I also am an avid baseball lover. More about Billy later). It's been a few months since Mr. Takei publicly announced his sexuality, but nevertheless, I'm grateful for his courageous disclosure. While I'm not Asian-American, I am a gay African-American man. With so few "Out" gay minority men, he's an inspiration to me to always be proud of who I am. So this post is just a little shout out of thanks for showing that there are gays in space! "Live Long and Prosper!"

Is It All Worth it?

Today and tonight has been an exhausting day! Despite my best efforts to have a positive day, the day was rough and fraught with too many complications. My job is driving me crazy and it's time for a change in venue. My home life was chaotic this evening because I broke a very expensive framed piece of art that was a gift from deceased loved one. Grrr!

I finished the evening by getting several shards of glass embedded in thumb and I can't dig them out. Yikes! Is all worth it? Sure. I have a job to pay my bills, put food on the table, and keep the roof over my head. I'm alive to complain about cutting my finger and I have some possessions to worry about ruining. I'm grateful. Not everyone woke up this morning. Not everyone who goes to sleep tonight will wake tomorrow. I might close my eyes forever tonight..keep in perspective what's important. Despite trials and tribulations, each day is a gift.

Yes indeed, its all worth it!

"Beautiful Black Men"

Beautiful Black Men"
By Nikki Giovanni

i wanta say just gotta say something

bout those beautiful beautiful beautiful outasight

black men

with they afros

walking down the street

is the same ol danger

but a brand new pleasure

sitting on stoops, in bars, going to offices

running numbers, watching for their whores

preaching in churches, driving their hogs

walking their dogs, winking at me

in their fire red, lime green, burnt orange

royal blue tight tight pants that hug

what i like to hug

jerry butler, wilson pickett, the impressions

temptations, mighty mighty sly

don't have to do anything but walk

on stage

and i scream and stamp and shout

see new breed men in breed alls

dashiki suits with shirts that match

the lining that compliments the ties

that smile at the sandals

where dirty toes peek at me

and i scream and stamp and shout

for more beautiful beautiful beautiful

black men with outasight afros

It's 2007! Happy New Year!

I'm still trying to figure out this whole blog thing but practice makes perfect...hope everyone had a good New Year's Eve. Today was supposed to be my first day that I quit smoking, I had a half of a cigarette this morning...so much for resolutions.