This morning on the drive to work I caught myself gawking at a beautiful guy standing outside the barbershop on the corner. I don't know why he was so captivating, he was just distracted me so. Perhaps because I've been struggling with self and a tad lonely something latched on to this Adonis hanging at The BMCC, but all I know is my mood today has been rather downplayed.
It's strange for me sometimes when I see visions of everything want/wanted to be in life... The perfect body, vibe, swagga, aura, whatever...I often am caught astounded by how I came to be in my own set of circumstances while others have seemingly progressed and achieved poise, grace, and all that jazz. It goes beyond sexuality for I often quite feel there's a place among my gay brethren as well. So happened?
Catching up with recent posts Pharaoh and UrsoVain wrote got me pondering about the great big game we're all playing; whether it's to find a mate or just make social acquaintances, you gotta have skills to fit right with the other players. Admittedly, I don't often know the rules! I guess that's the nature of life and I need to accept it, but it still doesn't make it right.
Perhaps Darwin was right after all? Survival of the fittest, eh? Hm, guess l'm losing fast...for now.
4 comments:
Sometimes there just doesn't seem to be a master plan. You just have to take it one moment at a time.
My Friend! Weilding The Axe is really LOOKING GREAT here! Your posts are tight and straight ON IT! No, I haven't ignored the CONTENT of late - I've saving that for our convo. But, I just wanted to tell you that you are REALLY WORKING the blog game and you're a MASTER AT IT!
i am glad to find someone out here who admits that they dont know all the rules. i feel better now bc i dont know all the rules either, *sigh*
Loving this blog, Ian!!!
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