I woke this morning with a heavy heart and too much on my mind. Just wasn't feeling the business today. Uh-un. But alas, time stands still for no person and I'm no exception. So I'm doing my best to work through my frustrations and regrets and get started with the day. I hate having to work Saturdays. Where everyone else can kick back and relax, my ass is up and slaving away. Well, maybe not slaving...but you get the idea.
Realize why I haven't blog much lately, there's been deep seeded issues too humiliating to post. Every time I sit down in front of the keyboard, that little Jiminy Cricket in my head tells me not to. Shame has been working overtime but I'm attempting to stay positive, so if you don't see words from me, just know I'm doing what needs to be done behind the scenes. This morning I had a conversation with God and for the first time in a long time I think I heard him answer back. Can't describe the sitch, but He understands my worries and the insecurities. I laid it there in front of Him and now I prepare to go about today with purpose (whatever purpose I serve in His plans).
Just thought I'd share....
3 comments:
stormy weather.....keeps raining all the time!!!
Hello! Just bloghopping. Great blog!
Happy blogging! :)
Hello ~ I just found your blog by random happenstance, and I just wanted to tell you how inspiring you are. I love your attitude and outlook, and the fact that you are gay and close to God makes you an absolute gem. Around where I'm from, one is usually one or the other; you're truly refreshing! I'm glad you heard His understanding words, and that they carried you through your day. May you continue to hear Him.
God Bless!
~Chelsea
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